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blog secret

2009-07-04T10:03:00.000-07:00

i found this via my friend sara

BLOG SECRET

so...basically

2009-07-04T09:43:00.001-07:00

just putting that out there

Top 10 Worst Sweatshop Abusing Companies

2009-07-04T09:29:00.000-07:00

Here's a little top ten list of sweatshop abusing companies...

1) Primark – Cheap clothes from cheap labour…
In 2008 Primark were exposed employing people in sweatshop conditions in Bangladesh, long hours, hazardous and unhealthy conditions for very low wages. In 2009 Primark were exposed by the BBC for employing people in similar conditions in the UK. Meanwhile, with amid the onset of a recession, Primark recently announced record profits!

2) Topshop – They’ve done it before they’ll do it again…
In 2002 No Sweat and the GMB Union exposed Topshop using sweatshops in the East End of London. Topshops response was to shut down the factories and burn the clothes, ruining lives and the environment. In 2007 The Times found out that Topshop boss, Philip Green, had simply moved his sweatshop conditions abroad, employing hundreds of Sri Lankan, Indian and Bangladeshi workers in Mauritius where they labour for up to 12 hours a day for 30 pence an hour

3) Asda/Walmart - Slave drivers of China & Bangladesh…
As part of the same report into Primark, Asda were also exposed for using some of the same Bangladeshi factories. In 2007 Hong Kong based group SACOM published a report detailing the sweatshop conditions workers that make toys for Asda’s parent company, Walmart. Late last year Walmart decreed that its Chinese suppliers have to respect workers' rights, including the right to organsie. Unfortunately Walmart palmed the cost of better wages and conditions on to the factory owners themselves, leading to mass factory closures and further impoverishment for workers

4) Tesco – Every little help, except in sweatshops…
In 2006 and again in 2008 the charity War on Want exposed Tesco for exploiting people in Bangladesh. In WoW’s report Fashion Victims they reported bullying by managers in factories and intimidation by employed thugs, awful working conditions and long hours. All the while Tesco reported record profits and opened stores across the globe!

5) Nike – Nasty old Nike, always exploiting their workers…
Nike are the experts at exploitation, ever since the anti sweatshop movement emerged, Nike have always been in the top ten of sweatshop abusing companies. Reports from 1996 were describing conditions where workers have to meet a quota before you can go home, no matter how long they’ve been there and without extra pay. In 2007 reports came through that little had changed in Nike sweatshops and workers were forced in to the desperate situation of striking for better pay, striking in countries where such actions can get you beaten or killed.

6) Adidas – Sweatshop made, Olympics specials…
The company that won the contract to be official sports brand behind the Olympics 08 use sweatshop labour to produce the Olympic gear. The money they earned from that contract never came anywhere near the workers at the bottom. A football stitcher in India would have to sew over 12 million balls/year to earn as much as Adidas CEO Herbert Heiner did in 2007 (that’s 100 balls per minute for a 48 hour work week)!!

7) Disney – Magic for some, hell for others…
2007 saw workers at a factory producing toys in Shenzhen, China fighting for their rights. Workers had been forced workers to sign one-sided ‘contracts’in which wages, work hours and benefits were left blank. Wages had been withheld, overtime unpaid, working hours excessive and living conditions in the dormitories atrocious. In addition, Tianyu management falsified contracts and concealed labour violations from social auditors. The workers fought back while Disney ignored their demands.

8) Burberry – Off to China for cheap workforce & fat profits…
In 2007 Burberry shut down its unionised South Wales factory to move garment production to Chinese sweatshops. Burberry moves to factories in Shenzhen in the Guangdong province of China where production is likely to involve employing child labour or use forced, prison labour. Workers in Britain lose their jobs while workers in China are signed up for exploited labour, all the while Burberry gets fat on the profits.

9) Starbucks – Crap coffee, crap employers…
Coffee growers receive little more than $1.10 (50p) for a pound of coffee, which is then sold for $160 (£80). Oxfam launched a campaign against Starbucks in October 2006 after it effectively blocked Ethiopia's attempts to trademark its coffee beans in the United States. Meanwhile, Starbucks workers in the US earn as little $6-$8 per hour depending on the location. Every single barista in the US is part-time and not guaranteed any work hours per week. For example, a Starbucks worker can get 35 hours of work one week, 22 hours the week after, and 10 hours the following week. In Britain baristas get a little over the minimum wage – in other words poverty pay.

10) Planet Earth Inc – Sweatshop labour across the globe…
Sweatshop labour isn’t confined to just a few companies in a few countries, it exists all over the world with factories ignoring basic right to decent conditions and pay while producing products for a whole variety of companies. Big companies make big profits from contracting their production out to middle men with the proviso to produce as cheap as possible to a certain standard. To reach that standard workers bear the brunt of long hours, low wages and terrible conditions. To keep the workers in line bullying and intimidation are commonplace.Sweatshop labour is modern, global capitalism striped bare.

please help by showing solidarity to your fellow workers and organizations like No Sweat you can join them as a fan on facebook or join as a facebook cause. they also have a twitter if you're into that

i don't trust men with necklaces

2009-06-22T20:25:00.000-07:00

i couldn't get anyone to cover my shift at stella lucy today but i got sent home for being sick anyways. i closed the store three hours early, hopefully no one drove up from san diego today...i'm always surprised at how many times i hear that a day. BUT while on my sick bed i was looking up artists i haven't heard from in a while, one of them, Matty Pop Chart, i saw in arcata two winters ago when i lived up there...weird that it was that long ago. regardless... he's really adorable and sincere. he played with kimya dawson up at the green house. i hadn't heard from him in a while but apperantly he has been up to making some muzak thankfully

Matty Pop Chart Â» Under the Sea

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i found this band as well which i admire for their strings and also that the drummer is using a snare and a suitcase...hmmm good band name anyone?

Busman's Holiday - (Mr.) Spaceman from If You Make It on Vimeo.

ran across Heathers shortly after and i'm not sure if i love them or not but their harmonies=perfection

Heathers - Waiter from If You Make It on Vimeo.

last one, i sware.... paul baribeau sings a leonard cohen cover

Paul Baribeau - Chelsea Hotel No. 2 from If You Make It on Vimeo.

very very important

2009-06-21T17:49:00.000-07:00

i just realized that i have not posted this video yet. please watch it.
it is very important, please watch the whole thing.

this isn't peta.

the least you can do is watch it before you make fun of me or look down on me for being vegan again

i refuse

2009-06-11T14:27:00.000-07:00

to ever fall out of love with elliott smith

catch up//thunder on our backs

2009-06-09T21:48:00.000-07:00

my kitten friends from oakland

We made some delicious gluten free vegan brownies. soo chocolatey. i used half egg replacer and half banana for the eggs. good choice.

when we cut them they fell apart and looked like poop, delicious delicious mushy poop

also i tried one of these today... also delicious

Alexander

2009-06-08T01:33:00.001-07:00

thanks for answering your phone, even if we didn't go to the show

quote of the night:

daniel : "how funny that i'm seeing the hangover with two straightedge kids"

alexander and julie : ....

also i almost forgot about this photo. it's one of the first ones i ever took and developed myself (i think i was 15). this is when i was really into adding dust and scratches, which i guess never changed.

i'm having a hard time getting my mind wrapped around the idea of getting a digital camera... it just doesn't seem real to me... the pictures i mean. they look beautiful in their own way i guess but there seems to be some sort of emptiness involved to it... i may have to take a break from photography for a while since i plan on never doing manual again

cheese

2009-06-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

i know many people who want to go vegan but have a hard time giving up cheese. it seems i hear vegetarians say that can give up cheese as much as omnivores say the can't give up meat. the answer... is of course you can.

but to those doubters i found a good post bob and jen(vegan freak) put up which i thought made some pretty good points. they will expand on it further in their book. the second edition is coming out in october. i recommend it for vegans and non-vegans alike

Though not cheating is easy for a lot of foods, some people find giving up cheese particularly difficult. For us, it wasn’t hard. We just went vegan one day, and didn’t look back, but for a lot of people we’ve talked to, cheese is the lone item that often still has its hooks in them. So many people have complained to us about how hard it was to give up cheese that we almost felt like we needed to set up some kind of support group in the basement of an area church where we served burnt coffee (with soy creamer) and let people talk about how many days cheese-clean they’ve been. Frankly, the whole thing was perplexing for us until we read up on casomorphins, or opioid chemicals that are present in cow’s milk (and by extension, very much present in cheese). Evolutionarily, these peptides probably had the function of creating a positive association between the calf and its mother and her milk. Now, however, humans consume more cow’s milk than calves do, and – improbable though it sounds – those who consume large amounts of dairy products are probably mildly addicted to them. It isn’t like you’re going to get the DTs or have seizures if you give up cheese, but certainly, these opiate effects can help to explain the more than mild cravings that lots of people have. A study underway during the time we were writing this book is looking at how casomorphins work in the human body, operating under the functional hypothesis that because cheese is one of the most commonly craved foods, it may be exerting mild opiate effects on its consumers. If this hypothesis is true the correct solution isn’t weaning yourself from crackcheeese slowly. As we suggest above, that would probably only lead you back to eating more cheese. The right solution is to stop eating cheese now, and to make an agreement with yourself never to eat it again. If you feel tempted to eat it, slide a paperclip over this page, and when you’re on the verge of eating cheese, come back here and remind yourself of these disgusting cheese facts:

Cheese is made from milk, and milk almost always contains pus. You may comfort yourself by thinking that the pus is pasteurized, and certainly, pasteurization will prevent you from becoming ill, but you’re still eating pus. Look at it like this: you could stick a dog turd in an autoclave and render it biologically harmless with significant pressure and heat. Yet, we’re willing to wager that you’d not be anxious to eat it unless you have some very strange proclivities indeed.

Forget about being vegan – most cheeses aren’t even vegetarian. Rennet, a stomach enzyme common to most mammals, is used to make cheese by “digesting” it, leaving behind a solid and a liquid. Rennet is often harvested from the stomachs of cattle in slaughterhouses, and used directly in cheese. Though there are vegetarian rennets synthesized by other means, it is difficult to know which cheeses use vegetarian rennet and which cheeses use the stuff scraped out of the stomachs of slaughtered animals. Yum! Cow stomach excretions obviously go great with pus!

In order for you to have your beloved cheese, someone had to produce the milk to make the cheese, and we don’t mean a dairy farmer. The someone in this case is a nameless dairy cow, identified only by a number and probably an radio frequency identification tag in her ear that helps the slave ownerfarmer track her productivity so he can send her to slaughter once she underproduces. In the larger dairy operations, this cow may never go outside, and she will repeatedly give birth to calves who will be stolen from her almost immediately after they are born. She will live a short and miserable life, and end up as hamburger on the plate of some fast food consumer, all because you could not find the guts up to stop eating cheese or drinking milk. And you say you care about animals?

Beyond being a disaster for cows, cheese is a disaster for you. A cup of diced cheddar has a whopping 532 calories, 385 of which come from fat. That includes 28 grams of saturated fat, which is 139% of amount recommended for total daily consumption by the United States government. And really, do you think those figures haven’t already been manipulated by decades of dairy and meat industry intervention in the government? To all that fat, you can add 139 milligrams of cholesterol and 820 mg of sodium. For comparison, if you decided to reach for a cup of chopped carrots instead, you’d be taking in fewer than a tenth of the total calories (52 calories for the whole cup) and less than 1 percent of the fat (3 calories versus 385 calories) than if you ate the cheese.

Cheese may taste good to you now, but really, like every other animal product, there’s no good reason to eat it. It is bad for you and bad for the animals that have to make the raw ingredients that go into it. Give it up now, call it quits, and go cold tofu. If you can do that, maybe you can come to our cheese-eaters anonymous meetings, sip some bad coffee, and tell us how many days you’ve been clean.

the original post can be found here

breaky

2009-06-01T12:46:00.000-07:00

I was going to finally make more almond milk BUT someone ate all my almonds.....sooo...

I've been on a mission to find better vegan recipes. today i found a good one for french toast. i tweaked it a little bit and suggest you try it.

1/2 cup soy, almond, or hemp milk
3 tbls flour
splash of vanilla
cinnamon to taste (about a 1/4 tbls)
i also accidently added cinnamon sugar, but not too much, it was delicious
a couple pieces of sourdough bread

basically just mix the milk, flour, vanilla, and cinnamon, it should be pretty thick, dip bread in mixture and slap it on a skillet.

its best with some fruit but since i didn't have any so blackberry preserves it is! (that's that little purple blob)

add agave and enjoy.

also it's really good with juice

bella ciao

2009-06-01T00:27:00.000-07:00

this has been my life over the past couple of days:

things are looking up

rhonda is gone for a while so i played my cello until my arms hurt and my fingers were too tired to go on, though not on the songs that i'm suppose to be working on right now...oh well, tomorrow is another day.

expedition

2009-05-28T20:14:00.000-07:00

i work by myself early in the mornings with the occasional company of one of my regulars. i haven't been keeping up with my once constant schedule so even they hardly come anymore. in this time i end up thinking too much to myself. one of my friends stopped by and we talked a little about school.

so one thing led to another and today i thought a little bit about my family.
i thought a little bit about my father and some of the things he asks me sometimes. i wonder how much he knows about me. after four years of veganism, he still asks me if i want to eat ribs with the family. he and rhonda still assume i do drugs regardless of anything anyone else knows that point to the contrary (still assuming, not assuming still). he doesn't know what music i listen to, my favorite color, what foods i like, who i'm dating at any given time (they still are not convinced i'm not dating ivan). it's a little irritating to be honest.

i'm not one to reach out by myself, so some of it may be my fault but i can't help but thinking that a little interest could be shone on the other side.

i don't think that he even knows that i hang out by myself all day. a couple weeks ago i had spent so much time at the park that i got the cops called on me by concerned neighbors. it's just hard to be here. It's hard when i want to practice any sort of music since it's not allowed in the house. usually i spend some extra time at work. by the time i finish my shift one of my friends will start theirs, so i linger for the company. as the routine goes, i'll drive by house, if rhonda's there i keep driving and go to the park, if not i'll go inside to practice or read, but we know how this half usually turns out.

i just need to be close to people again, not just mentally but physically. i feel so disconnected from people and need that. it's not that i need anything sexual, just closeness and comfort without awkwardness.

i suppose that's why i've been getting into all those crappy relationships like bobby and maybe that's why i had so many problems with ivan, but at this point i guess i'd rather be a hermit than do that sort of thing again, either one.

i've been doing a lot of good reflection though. i've been fixing up my diet so that i can be healthy again, spending more time outside, and calling up old friends. While i don't see much coming from that friends part, i at least want to keep ties up.

however, this summer looks promising
new friends are helping me keep my chin up

Strawberry Jam

2009-05-21T17:12:00.000-07:00

i hate reoccurring emotions how certain ones just don't go away and that time doesn't make it any easier.

on a lighter note, i've found a couple new artists that i would like to share.

Ben Kehoe one of two brother artists. I love his bio which says "I am an artist currently located in Pittsburgh, PA. I graduated from Temple University in 2001 and use my degree as source of constant self amusement.You may ask me why I opted to get a communications degree and my answer would be a blank stare followed by an exploding M80 which would give me time to escape into a dark alleyway where I could sob unashamedly.

My influences are nature, pattern-based medieval artwork, comical violence and uncomfortable situations."

enough said

The last, is the other Kehoe brother Andy. He has also put a funny bio on his site but it's a little too long to put on here. They both seem like awesome guys, but as a secret, i like andy's art better.

again with the photographs

2009-05-20T11:23:00.000-07:00

So I'm studying for my photography final and so I've been looking at work from my favorite photographer, Sally Mann. She is best known for her family portraits, in which she recruits her young children as models for very dark and eerie portraits. As you probably noticed...I'm all into the dark and eerie.

Her children are actually a little older than I am now, but that's just a side note.

there is a documentary on her by the title WHAT REMAINS: THE LIFE AND WORK OF SALLY MANN. if anyone gets ahold of it please get ahold of me. please?

2009-05-18T23:41:00.000-07:00

i'm sure you've all seen it already but one of my favorite series i've come across is called The Ninth Floor. It was born when Jessica Dimmock spent three years documenting the happenings of a ninth floor apartment on fifth ave in manhattan. during that time (circa 2004) there were anywhere from twenty to thirty heroine addicts living there.

i almost want to call it a character study but it's more than that. the suspension of reality we find in characters is lost here and dimmock is able to catch an almost anthropological study. it's erie and a bit jarring but it is real. the surrealness of the life you can see in these dead faces never ceases to capture my intrest

here is a good selection and interview

BUT

here is the whole series

it's ocarina time!!!

2009-05-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

so brent found this amazing guy on youtube. we all thought the suzuki music method would never come in handy but now we recognize these japanese folk tunes!

he's Daniel's new idol.

apparently broccoli work the best

his little girl is the best

riverside

2009-05-17T22:40:00.000-07:00

after the flea market i headed up to riverside to see my friend mike. <---
for people who don't know, mike was one of my mini-muses last fall when i was writing more (in Naomi, which is still not finished). I met him on his birthday last year, then he ended up being in arcata during a trip i took back "home" there. since then we became friends.

i think most people have heard mike xvx (you can listen to his stuff here)
but i met paul's friend miguel as well.

i suggest you CHECK HIM OUT

he also plays trombone in a band called citizen fish if you are familiar.

his solo stuff is pretty folky and awesome

and to the sons and daughters of last.fm he doesn't have a profile up, so i may have to make one. i'm trying to decide if it's creepy for me to do that or not...

three/four time

2009-05-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

So I thought I might put up some of my shots since no one has seen my photos. Granted i don't really like to put the ones i develop by hand up online since a) they never look like they do in real life and b) i have an aversion in going into steven's room to use the scanner. soo... crappy photos COMING UP!

This one won't go right side up and i'm waaaay too lazy to fix that, also this is an example of why I don't put hand-made photos online. This print is actually BLUE in real life, I toned that sucker for sooo long. and by long i mean, not very long at all but regardless...it's blue.
the other thing about my manual photography is that as a general rule, if i'm using "messy borders" which is what you can see here, or something that isn't extremely clean, I like dust. I see it like a little stamp that it's made by hand and not on a machine, made with love and toxic chemicals...mmmm

also, today at juice it up! we juiced about SEVEN apples. I took the little peely left over stuff and am going to attempt to make raw apple pie with it. Wish me luck, I'll tell you how it goes.

Summer Tour Split

2009-05-16T15:57:00.000-07:00

So Lost Sound Tapes is releasing a summer tour split 7'' for watercolor paintings and iji.

And you can listen to it right now!

HERE

I'm not sure if anyone remembers Watercolor Paintings. They are a brother sister duo from Santa Barbara and they did a little house show here in San Clemente at the Construct, not to be confused with the New Construct :). We know them through Alex...Smith that is. Anyway, it's a good time to be had. If you're in the mood for some super cute tunes, check them out.
Indiana and Sneezes are both highly recommended.

Fingerprints

2009-05-12T12:30:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday Ryan and I hit up Fingerprints in Long Beach to see a certain Sam Beam//Iron and Wine.
he makes me blush.

Basically the best day ever.

oh and within an hour of posting the videos on youtube a girl sent me a message explaining that i basically ruined her life because i didn't record harvest....yep

up next gogol bordello in santa cruz, and maybe in boston too?

more than orange juice

2009-04-22T11:50:00.000-07:00

i have so many mixed feelings right now but i think things are starting working out, finally

carnies, love, and sepia tone

2009-04-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

I think I just developed my greatest roll of film...ever. contact sheet soon to come. everything is going so well.

dying to say this to you

2009-04-18T12:00:00.000-07:00

three years. i can't bear to give you anymore

Bookfair Weekend

2009-03-20T12:41:00.000-07:00

It was a wonderful weekend. millenium....soo good.

rewild

2009-03-18T12:05:00.000-07:00

i just got ahold of mike xvx's new album, 'rewild'. it doesn't have as much catchiness as his first album BUT what it does have is passion, intimacy and raw emotion. it continues on themes of animal liberation, feminism, and general freedom in a way which reaches a wider audience than the general seven generations and gather fans, but keeps to it's roots.

I feel a lot more from this album.

Before it actually came out one of it's tracks titled "i'm not afraid to admit that i need help" found me in a hard spot one night. it was before i actually talked to him on a more regular basis but it was a time when i felt alone, not that i didn't think that anyone else didn't feel the way that i did, but that i had never heard it before.

the first couple chapters in my novel Naomi are heavily influenced by his music.

i recommend getting ahold of his music to anyone who's looking for a little more meaning in their lives

my favorite tracks are : "my favorite place" and "that night i dreamed of arson"

for any graphic designers out there

2009-03-07T21:51:00.000-08:00

I'm so good at not doing my homework

2009-03-07T21:38:00.000-08:00

i think i should major in putting things off.

i think i already put this up BUT since rhonda was talking to me, i remembered to spend a little time at http://www.passiveaggressivenotes.com/

procrastinating

2009-03-02T21:32:00.000-08:00

I have a hard time doing anything anymore, little motivation to get off my lazy ass. once i get up i'm fine and love to do everything, it's just getting to that point. there are so many things i need to do, my zine, sewing cycling caps, homework, books i want to read, being yelled at by the rhonda etc.

on the good side I shot another 2 rolls today and i hope they come out. i've been having such bad luck with cameras lately and it's discouraging.... incredibly so.

the anarchist book fair is swiftly coming upon us.

there have been book fairs popping up everywhere from Arcata to LA but nothing beats the original. on sunday Andrej Grubacic is speaking on Wooblies & Zapatistas. i'm excited. it will be a good weekend. also the anarchist cafe is on that friday from 7-10 p.m. at 225 Potrero Ave. (Between 15th and 16th Street) if anyone cares.

hopefully i will get to see sean.

in other news, i've officially applied to byu, but my transcripts are late...not sure how that's gonna turn out...we will see. maybe i'll just adventure for a quarter? sea shepherd anyone?

i'm still a little sore from that hike. let's go on another one?

i should really just stop listening to such mellow music when i want to do something productive i need to bust out Carmensita, it always gets me pumped

you should listen to the lyrics

DayTrotter

2009-03-01T22:35:00.000-08:00

Somewhere in a land far far away (Illinois) there is a magical recording studios that bands come to record at when they pass through. The sound they record is wonderful and often fresh for bands we've been listening to for a while.

For example, Bon Iver has a wonderful song called Lump Sum which he re-recorded at this studio...it's amazing.

It's also a sweet place to find new bands like Horse Feathers

bands also include Andrew Bird, Tilly and the Wall, The Mountain Goats, The National...you get the point

and the best part? all the tracks are free!

Glass Cake

2009-03-01T22:19:00.000-08:00

So there's this girl and she's awesome. One of my best friends in santa barbara is friends with a girl named Michelle who records music in her bathroom and she's awesome. I started listening to her at a time when i could really relate to her music. it's raw and beautiful...oh and she's also friends with one of my favorite artists, Jon Carling so I love her even more.

she put her demo up on mediafire for everyone to download and love too.

http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?znmkw2mjmuz

just sayin

2009-02-25T09:53:00.000-08:00

Like Lavender

2009-02-16T21:48:00.000-08:00

sometimes i just want a real conversation with a real person

i wish i could tell you what i mean to say

more artists

2009-02-15T22:26:00.000-08:00

I'm in love with a man named Jon Carling, an artist currently living in Oakland. I'm jealous of his talent and he's currently my creative inspiration.

he's on etsy too!

Michael Phelps

2009-02-05T21:25:00.000-08:00

gets caught smoking weed and the first thought that seems to enter everyone's minds is... "imagine what fat rips he must be able to take with that lung capacity"

so true, so true

free art show

2009-01-09T18:57:00.000-08:00

my friend Paul Barron (now based in San Francisco) will be showing some art at a folk and punk show this

Saturday the 10th of January.

Art show starts at 6pm.

At the Impound house located at:
346 East Lincoln street in Orange, CA

The first Saturday of Feb he'll be showing at the Santora Building in Down Town Santa Ana....

207 North Broadway
Santa Ana, CA 92701

merry christmas

2008-12-25T22:51:00.000-08:00

this christmas was just another day i guess. it was my first day off in a long time and is the only day i have off for the next week or so.
steve and i went to the migdat's. that's really all i have to say about that except that i had a really good time talking to my cousin. i have a lot of hope for him and it was nice not to feel so alone at all of these functions. he actually inspired me a little. i need to get a better hold of what i'm doing in life.
right now i feel like i'm aimlessly wandering, waiting for something

it's official

2008-11-10T20:31:00.000-08:00

i am now homeless.
i decided that i couldn't really afford rent at my house so i'm staying with friends right now, will perhaps camp around. it'll be an adventure to say the least.
i quit nordstrom recently. saturday is my last day. that job has just been creating too much unneeded stress in my life right now with too little pay. i have a job at a gluten-free market called Stella Lucy's down by del mar. it's really nice, i love it, but unfortunately i only work saturdays. it should be enough to pay my car payments for the moment, but sadly no rent.
i've been missing my friends up north and the new plan is to move up next semester.
i feel like i'm a little messed up right now. as most of you know i've finally been able to move on from my relationship with ivan. that's not to say that i'm over it or anything but it's what's best. i miss the friendship more than anything. dating someone for so long, i guess that that's bound to happen. he was, after all my best friend for over two years.
i just learned that sean and jocie (my old best friends) recently broke up as well. i think that that's for the best as well. it really solidifies things though for some reason.
i'm dating someone new and it's going okay. he's not really someone i ever saw myself dating but things seem to be working out as well as i could hope for, which is not well on my side but very good on his side. so at least one of us is happy.

....yeah... that's all for now.

now i'm done!

2008-07-24T12:53:00.001-07:00

it's been a long time

101 Reasons to GO VEGAN

2008-06-07T10:08:00.000-07:00

original site

its UK based but it gives you an idea of what's going on. just remember that the numbers would be much greater when applying it to the US

PEOPLE

Every year in the UK we feed our livestock enough food to feed 250,000,000 people while in the world 30,000,000 people die of starvation
20 vegetarians can live off the land required by one meat eater
Every 3 seconds a child dies of starvation somewhere in the world
If Americans reduced their meat consumption by 10% it would free 12,000,000 tons of grain - enough to feed 60,000,000 people (the population of Great Britain)
If all Americans became vegetarian, it would free enough grain to feed 600,000,000 people (the population of India)
Intensification in animal farming has displaced 1,000,000's of people from their traditional lands - eg. indigenous people in south & central america, native americans in north america & crofters in Great Britain - this is continuing today
People displaced from their lands into cities succumb to dietary deficiency, diseases, parasites & opportunistic diseases
In third world countries 1 in 10 babies die before their first birthday
The UK imports 46,000,000 worth of grain from third world countries to feed our livestock
Due to overgrazing 850,000,000 people live on land threatened by desertification & over 230,000,000 already live on land so severely desertified that they are unable to sustain their existence & face imminent starvation
1,000,000,000 people in the west gorging on meat & dairy leave 1,000,000,000 to waste away & 3,500,000,000 teeter on the brink

LAND

If they continue to clear American forests to raise cattle at the present rate, in 50 years there will be none left
1 acre yields 165 lbs of beef or 20,000 lbs of potatoes
8/10 of cultivated land in the UK is used to grow food for animals
It takes 16lbs of high protein soya to produce 1 lb of beef
Since 1945 in the UK we have lost 95% of flower meadows, 50% of ancient woodlands, 40% of heathlands, 50% of wet lands & 224,000 km of hedgerows all due to animal farming
Pressure on land due to meat farming leads to soil erosion 6billion tons/year in the USA
If everyone went vegetarian upto 90% of land used for animal farming could be taken out of production & used to replant woodlands, leisure activities etc.
25% of Central america's forests have been destroyed for cattle grazing since 1960
Between 1966-1983 38% of the Amazon rain forest was destroyed for cattle grazing
90% of cattle ranches established on cleared forest land go bankrupt in less than 8 years as the land becomes barren due to nutrient loss & overgrazing
Overgrazing by cattle is destroying the land & increasing desertification, nearly 430 million acres in the USA alone has suffered a 25-50% reduction in yield since first grazed
An inch of topsoil takes 200-1000 years to develop - yet in the USA they have lost around 1/3 of their prime topsoil in 200 years (around 7 inches) due to animal farming
Land will be lost due to rises in sea level due to global warming due to animal farming

AIR

The destruction of the rainforest by cattle farmers is destroying the lungs of the planet & reducing the worlds capacity to replenish our oxygen supply
The 1,300,000,000 cattle in the world emit 60,000,000 tons of methane per year (methane is a greenhouse gas & leads to global warming)
Burning of forests, grasslands & agricultural waste associated with animal farming releases 50-100,000,000 tons of methane per year
Combining these figures, 25% of methane emissions are due to animal farming (not including the billions of sheep, pigs & poultry so the real figure is much higher)
Fertilizer used to grow crops to feed to animals releases nitrous oxide - thought to account for 6% of the greenhouse effect
Fertilizer, weedkiller & pesticides sprayed on crops enter the atmosphere creating a noxious carcinogenic cocktail
CFCs are released into the air from refrigeration units used to store decomposing flesh (meat), milk & butter - CFCs are destroy the ozone layer
Ammonia from animal urine also pollutes the atmosphere
CO2 is released by burning oil & petrol in lorries, ships, abattoirs, dairies, factories etc. associated with meat & dairy production
Emissions from large chemical plants which produce fertilizer, weedkiller & other agricultural chemicals are also poisoning our air

WATER

25 gallons of water to produce 1lb of wheat & 2500 gallons to produce 1lb of meat
UK farm animals produce 200,000,000 tons of slurry (liquid excrement) every year, the majority of which ends up in our rivers
Bloody waste water from abattoirs ends up in our rivers
In the USA every second humans produce 12,000 lbs of effluent while farmed animals produce 250,000 lbs
Nitrates & pesticides used on crops grown to feed livestock end up in our rivers
Meat & dairy farming uses 70 litres of water per day per animal in the UK or 159,250,000,000 litres per year in total
The water used to produce 10 lbs of steak is equivalent to the average consumption of water for an entire household for an entire year
Depletion of groundwater reserves to grow crops for animals & to supply abattoirs will lead to greater water shortages
Aquafers (stores of underground water) in the San Joaquin valley in the USA are being drained at the rate of 500,000,000,000 gallons/year to produce meat
18% of all agricultural land in the world is irrigated & as global warming increases (partly due to animal farming) it will cost $200,000,000 to keep these systems going
The water used to produce a 1000 lb beef steer is enough to float a Destroyer battleship
The liquid waste from the various parts of the meat & dairy industry flow into the rivers & from there into the seas polluting them & encouraging huge algal blooms to grow

EFFICIENCY

To produce 1calorie of energy from meat takes 60 calories of petrol, whereas growing grains & legumes to directly feed people produces 20 calories for each calorie of fuel used ( thats 1200 times more efficient)
Meat & dairy farming uses billions of gallons of oil to run tractors, fuel ships & lorries (to move animal feed & animals), pump billions of gallons of water to irrigate fields & run slaughterhouses, power refrigeration units to prevent the corpses from decomposing & to power sewage plants to clean up some of the pollution produced
Cattle convert only 6% of their energy intake (mainly grains & soya) into flesh, the remaining 94% is wasted as heat, movement (which is why they keep many animals in very close confinement), hair, bones, faeces etc
1lb of beef takes 1 gallon of petrol to produce
A family of four eating beef for a year uses enough petrol to run a car for 6 months (obviously depending on how far you drive!)
If the full ecological cost of meat was passed onto the consumer - the price would be quadrupled (at least)
The EC spends 100,000,000's to subsidise animal production resulting in lakes of unwanted milk & mountains of unwanted meat & butter. This money could be better spent encouraging organic fruit, vegetable & grain production
In the USA in 1979 145,000,000 tons of crops were fed to cattle resulting in only 21million tons of animal bodies - the cost of the wasted crops was $20,000,000,000
Between 1950 & 1985 grain production in Europe & the USA increased massively but 2/3 was fed to animals
70% of all grain is fed to animals
Eating vast quantities of animal flesh, eggs, milk & butter is a luxury that most of the planet can not afford

ANIMALS

Fishing with drift (and other modern) nets weakens & destroys ecosystems by indiscriminately killing billions of sea creatures & disrupting the sea bed
Fishermen's nets kill 10 times as many other animals as the fish they are hoping to catch
Fish caught in nets die an agonising slow death of suffocation
Each year 15,000,000,000 land animals are slaughtered for food & an unknown but much larger number of sea creatures (including 1000's of dolphins caught accidentally)
Chickens are crammed into battery cages with upto 3 other birds, they are unable to even spread their wings & many can not even stand up
Unwanted male chicks (because they can't lay eggs) are gassed or pulped while their sisters go to the battery sheds
Chicks are debeaked without anaesthetic to prevent them injuring each other in the unnaturally confined conditions they are kept in - this is equivalent to having your fingernails pulled out without anaesthetic
Modern farming methods using growth hormones & artificial lighting mean that many chickens out grow their bones, resulting in fractured & broken legs
Sows are kept tethered in stalls 1.3 x 1 metre on concrete or slatted floors - they can not even turn around
Poultry raised for meat are kept in windowless broiler sheds, with around 20-30,000 in each shed, they live in an area of 10-20 cm square - fighting due to overcrowding is common & like battery hens they commonly suffer from supperating bed sores
Broilersheds are artificially lit 23 hours a day to produce rapid growth
Animals travel between farms & to slaughter in overcrowded transporters with no food or water - resulting in stress, injuries & deaths - legal requirements are widely ignored
95% of poultry suffer injuries before being killed & 30% suffer broken bones
Problems with stunning practices mean that many animals have their throats slit while still conscious (around 6% of cattle or 200,000 per year) & are then dipped in tanks of scalding water (to loosen feathers, bristles etc.) again while fully conscious
4000 animals die spurting their blood out every minute in a British slaughterhouse
Calf leather comes from animals killed at just 2 weeks old
Cows were fed on the ground up remains of other cows & sheep - the result is thought to be BSE (mad cow disease) in the USA cattle are fed partly on recycled plastic pellets
Cows only give milk for 10 months after they have a calf - so they are routinely artificially inseminated (ie. mechanically raped) to keep them pregnant & milking - their calves are taken away (usually at 12 hours old) for meat or export to veal crates
Cows would naturally live upto 20 years but are slaughtered after 5-7 years when their milk production begins to fall
In the UK animals are killed by first being stunned with electricity or a captive bolt gun (ie. a bolt is fired into their heads) before having their throats slit & being plunged into boiling water - all this happens on a production line with the animals being hung upside down from a moving conveyor belt - this is factory farming
"Animals are those unfortunate slaves & victims of the most brutal part of mankind" - John Stewart Mill (philosopher)
Veal calves are confined in stalls in the dark, unable to move & are fed on pigs blood , chocolate & dried milk (we are drinking the rich fresh milk of their mothers)
Cows naturally produce 5 litres of milk per day for their calves - under the intensified systems of modern farming they produce 25-40 litres per day - resulting in swollen & inflamed udders - at this rate they are soon worn out
Large areas of land are under monoculture to grow crops to feed to animals - these areas are wildlife deserts supporting fewer & fewer species.

HEALTH

Vegetarians have a 20% lower rate of mortality from all causes (ie. they live longer & don't get sick as often)
Meat is full of traces of antibiotics, hormones, toxins produced by stress & pesticide residues that become concentrated from all the crops they have eaten
Fish contain heavy metals & other pollutants -many of which originated on farms
The world health organisation recommends a diet low in saturated fat, sugar, salt & with plenty of fibre - exactly what you get on a vegan/vegetarian diet
Farmed animals contain upto 50% saturated fat in their bodies
Vegetarians have 24% reduced risk of getting heart disease & Vegans a 57% reduction (heart disease is the biggest killer in the UK accounting for 50% of deaths)
Obesity is rare in vegetarians, obesity is related to many diseases
Vegans & vegetarians have lower blood pressure & cholesterol levels - high levels are associated with heart disease, strokes & kidney failure
Vegetarians have a 50% reduced risk of dying of diabetes
Vegetarians have a 40% reduced level of cancer than the general population thought to be because they have a higher intake of vitamins A,C & E
Vegetarians have a reduced risk of developing gall & kidney stones
80% of food poisoning is due to infected meat (faeces, bacteria etc.) after all meat is decomposing flesh - most of the rest is due to salmonella in eggs
Osteoporosis due to calcium loss from bones is mainly due to the sulphur content in meat & casein protein in milk that cause calcium to be lost in the urine - the countries with the highest meat & dairy consumption are those with the highest levels of brittle bones
50% of people do not have the enzyme to digest milk properly & milk allergy is related to asthma & eczema
Meat eaters have double the rate of Alzheimers disease as Vegans & Vegetarians - some people also think that Parkinsons disease is also linked to meat eating
Egg yolk is a dense concentration of saturated fat & the white is high in albumin protein associated with leaching calcium into your urine. Butter is 80% saturated fat, cream is 40% saturated fat & cheese is 25-40% saturated fat
Meat eaters are two and a half times more likely to get bowel cancer than Vegetarians
The cling film used to wrap meat in supermarkets & butchers contains chemicals linked to falling sperm counts in men
Chinese people (living mainly on a vegetarian diet) consume 20% more calories than Americans but Americans are 20% fatter
Of 2,100,000 deaths in the USA in 1987, 1,500,000 were related to diet (ie. meat & dairy)

AND I COULD GO ON !

If you've read this far, I hope that you are beginning to see that the Meat & Dairy industry is a major contributor to misery on this planet. It is destroying the health of people in rich countries, starving those in poor countries, it is torturing & killing billions of animals every year and in the meantime it is one of the major factors in the destruction of the environment - so what does the meat & dairy industry have to say in it's defence?
Well their only real point is usually "Meat is tasty" - fair enough a lot of people enjoy the taste of meat - but there are plenty of delicious alternatives (just consider the huge range of vegetarian dishes in Indian cooking - one of the oldest & most sophisticated cuisines in the world) and if you really crave meat & dairy, nowadays there are plenty of healthy non animal alternatives - just look in the supermarket & health food shop. So I hope you will agree it's pretty pathetic to consider all the evidence & then say "well I know you're right about the environment & health & the animals - but I just love my meat"

Oracular Spectacular

2008-06-01T10:56:00.000-07:00

MGMT's new video "Time To Pretend" is definitely on my top ten list at the moment. It's Lord of the Flies meets Yellow Submarine avec psychedelic colours and green screen effcts...and the songs not half bad either

blog about a blog

2008-05-19T07:47:00.000-07:00

roller chester is my god

the important part shows

2008-05-15T12:00:00.000-07:00

nataliedee.com
maybe i'll fix it later

suffering from infatuation

2008-05-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

2008-05-12T11:42:00.000-07:00

I'm going to miss the rain

2008-05-12T11:19:00.000-07:00

What does it mean to be in and to fall in love? Who actually qualifies as the one your in love with? The one who you miss? The one you’re jealous of? The one you clean up after? The boy making funny faces at me from across the library?
I’ve been with the same person for two years and already it feels like we are an old married couple. I use to want the relationship that I’m in; a stable, comfortable relationship. All of that has changed though and I guess I don’t know what I want anymore. Which makes it hard for my mate since he feels he must change to better suit my needs. I really don’t know what those needs are though, honestly I don’t.
I look back and am a little sad. Maybe I’ve missed my chance at something else. Maybe that is why I’m feeling this way. Maybe I just want what’s just out of my reach and everyday it gets a little further until it completely disappears from sight.
Don’t get me wrong. I love my boyfriend. I absolutely adore him. He’s probably more than I deserve. Without him I don’t know what I would do, especially in Humboldt which is just not the place for me. I just wonder why I am so lonely.
Maybe I’m just in a funk. Maybe I want too much or maybe I just need to know what I need. I’m not searching for love like in the movies. I’m searching for happiness. Sometimes love isn’t all you need. People accuse me of being selfish for such a goal but I feel it would be nice to find happiness and share it with someone.

And recently I've made a new friend and it already seems like we've know each other much longer than a few days. All of a sudden I find myself wishing I could stay just another week or so but I know I don't want to stay here. Relationships are fickle even if they are just the kind for friends and it would seem silly to stay for that. I'm sure he'll get tired of me before the week is through anyway. I find myself excited about going home and being able to start working again and seeing my friends but i already i begin to feel nostalgic.

2008-05-10T10:30:00.000-07:00

i wish i had the funds to make vegan cheesecake. i really want it right now. whenever i do have the time/money it always seems to be gone before i get the chance to have a piece. i guess that's what i get for living with two boys.
i think i'll spend most of my day in the library today, working on finals and such. i really want to practice cello today.
i don't even know what i'm talking about. just rambling i guess

well we did just get mario cart wii

2008-05-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

enough said

2008-05-08T21:59:00.001-07:00

I found a new place to waste my time check it out

2008-05-06T10:39:00.000-07:00

for all the snobs out there this one is for you. I came across this site today through a link from fetch dog. I actually think it's pretty funny and if you know, or think you know, your stuff it is. They have sections on music snobbery, film snobbery, and food snobbery. Mostly it takes whacks on people who think they are snobs like mentioning Juno and the "scene in which Jason Bateman’s 40-ish yuppie character communes with young Juno (Ellen Page) by playfully arguing over the merits of Herschell Gordon Lewis versus those of Dario Argento. The concept isn’t bad, but the scene is about as believable as the name Diablo Cody." They also have stuff like Five songs that sound like they ought to be sung by the muppets

PSA

2008-04-23T13:04:00.001-07:00

a tool

2008-04-10T12:04:00.000-07:00

so i feel like such a tool but i still can't help loving Shepard Fairey, the artist behind Obey. Does it really make me a sell out if i like a sell-out's art...hmmm...i'm having an internal conflict right now. although maybe it's just the stencil and colour style that i like. he does use most of my favorite colour combinations...maybe that's it. I did see a sweet bottle of wine the other day with this style label although i think it would be more appropriate for vodka, maybe.

but at least i still like Kawsone so that makes me mildly legit right?

my roommate's boyfriend is sleeping in her bed right now and snoring...kind of annoying since she's not even here

my future children

2008-04-07T13:10:00.001-07:00

don't ask me how i'm going to end up with a Korean baby, I'll figure that one out later.

mano negra

2008-04-03T13:03:00.000-07:00

I am the creator/editor of a zine called Mano Negra in Humboldt County, Ca. We use to have a pretty good circulation going around campuses and the like but we (all of the writers and I) have recently fallen apart.
The original purpose for my zine was to get radical people involved in writing and sharing their knowledge or the "real world" as we like to call it. Needless to say, the writers had different ideas. So the zine became a compilation of 6-8 of us, mostly girls, who wrote on a singular topic and how it related to our lives. This was actually part of my original idea but then topics people wanted to write on became less and less radical until we just started to rant, which is fine but it's not what i wanted out of my zine.
Classes made us drift a little as the semester ended and it got harder and harder for us to meet, for a while they actually had to meet without me but we were still able to come up with our February issue, our 4th issue, but our designated printer never got around to sending us copies so that we could print. It's all but a memory now but i remember and want my original plan to come to life.

one more and then i'm done

2008-04-02T00:01:00.000-07:00

i don't know how i found jerry time but now i have a new past time...wow lame use of words there

my new boyfriend

2008-04-01T22:04:00.001-07:00

watch out

2008-04-01T15:19:00.000-07:00

or Dihydrogen Monoxide will get you.
read it? you don't get it? think about it real hard.

my holiday

2008-03-31T19:33:00.000-07:00

has been spent on catching up on ANTM via youtube, a small (very small) work out, looking up places in SF, sewing my jeans, and general nothingness.

so my new find (thanks to Tiff) is stuff white people like.
my favorites being apple, bicycles, and, well it's all pretty funny especially coming from orange county and being around people who are actually like that.

I gave a little research to Mathangi Arulpragasam (M.I.A.) since I've only heard a couple of her songs and there's all this hype about her. Sean first introduced her to Ivan and I circa 2006? i think but now everyone is like OMG M.I.A.
So here's the scoop on her. Born in England to a Tamil activist-turned militant, she moved back to Sri Lanka when she was 6 months old. To make a long story short she, her mother and siblings had to move frequently trying to avoid the civil war/ethnic conflict with little contact from her father who was obviously involved in the struggle. Finally they ended up back in the UK as refugees. Now 11 she started to learn English and first heard Western radio from her neighbor's flats in London. She started off as an artist and designed an album cover for Elastica and went on tour with them and Peaches where she was encouraged to become a musician and the rest is history as they say.

like her because she's legit and sings about real issues. any violence in her music is about civil war, guerilla warfare, etc, not some glorified graphic sent out for shock value, if you can call that shocking anymore.

she grows on you

I think she looks like Daniel's girlfriend, Roxy and no it's not the hair

oh and ps this story isn't actually true. it's a segment called the best story ever on a canadian political news show called the hour. People usually just tell fake stories, and it's supposed to be obvious. Tom green told a story about how he almost bled to death with his ribs sticking out and he was bleeding in the bathroom for fifteen minutes.

don't you wish you're car insurance were as cheap as you are

2008-03-28T23:19:00.003-07:00

I know i do

who does she think she's kidding

2008-03-28T15:53:00.000-07:00

does anyone know what significantly higher fasting plasma triacylglycerol values do to your body? it promotes cardiovascular disease (particularly in men). that's what HFCS does to you. Studies done actually have suggested that fructose does increase obesity. Large quantities of fructose stimulate the liver to produce triglycerides, promotes glycation of proteins and induces insulin resistance. According to one study, the average American consumes nearly 70 pounds of HFCS per annum, marking HFCS as a major contributor to the rising rates of obesity in the last generation.
fructose is more readily converted to fat by your liver than is sucrose, increasing the levels of fat in your bloodstream and also contributes to high cholesterol and diabetes. I can't believe that people would believe her.

i found the review...There Will Be Blood

2008-03-27T16:43:00.000-07:00

i wrote this back in february and since i've had requests for it...here

There Will Be Blood seems to follow the new cinematic craze of long silences, small hints of a soundtrack and cinematography that is reminiscent of early film noir classics. This, Paul Thomas Anderson accomplishes flawlessly and unlike No Country For Old Men you won’t find yourself glancing at your watch to check the time. Based on Upton Sinclair’s Oil!, There Will Be Blood takes us from the American dream to an American nightmare. It is a film that tells the classic story of greed, envy, and damnation in biblical proportions. We meet Daniel Plainview who finds his personal heaven and hell in an Old Testament town full of New Testament evangelicalism. His only two enemies, mankind and God, never let him rest. Daniel Day-Lewis’s performance leaves nothing for the asking as the man who holds competition at his breast.
With a tangle of relationships there is enough plot aside from murderous greed to keep the story going. The relationships circle around fathers, sons, and brothers with little on-screen time for women so don’t look for any romance. There aren’t unrealistic ideals here.
However, the bond between Plainview and H.W. (Dillon Freasier) raises the stakes enough to give the emotional strength required.
We see Plainview and are constantly reminded by brimstone and flame, created by oil wells, of where he stands in this world.
The only note to make is Paul Dano’s characters, Eli and Paul Sunday, who are in fact brothers but it confuses some thinking that they are in fact the same person. Originally Dano was only cast as Paul but when the original actor for Eli fell through Dano was brought in. It was too late to reshoot the scene with Paul Sunday so they were made twins. The fact that Dano so thoroughly convinces us of Eli’s psychopathic nature is what primarily convinces us that they could be one in the same.
While initially the film may seem slow just wait, let it engulf you and you will sucked right in like Eli’s followers at a sermon. Sound is crucial, even in its absence but when the soundtrack comes int it is nothing less than perfect. Let Day-Lewis’ reverberating tone pull you in with its charming wolfish perversity. You will follow him as he reaches Little Boston and finds a whole sea waiting just for this oilman. It seems so easy until Eli Sunday throws Plainview’s second enemy, religion, on the doorstep with impish ferocity.
H.W., the infant he adopts when the boy’s father dies in Plainview’s first accident in an oil well. H.W. is the closest he gets to true love even if he does exploit H.W.’s boyish charm and family values. When H.W. goes deaf Plainview is heartbroken, but not openly, and never forgives himself as his once partner and companion becomes standoffish, suspicious, and jealous. The heartbreak lasts until the end, both that of Plainview and H.W. The chemistry between the actors brings that side to it when easily we could have forgotten Plainview’s love, which makes him human. That is why we love Plainview. Even if he seems a heartless killer, a ravenous miser, he is capable of love and to us that gives him light. It gives us more than just horrified fascination.
In the final scene Plainview takes final revenge on both man and God with a charge of blistering violence. With biblical exultation Plainview utters, “I’m finished.” It just about leaves you breathless.
Lovers of a sugar coated sweet story will hate this film. If you have no sense of adventure, don’t even bother. But then again, if you were looking for that you’d probably dislike me as well.

It's attatched to your rod motherlicker!

2008-03-27T15:50:00.001-07:00

well now that we've all seen it about 50 times i can only say it gets funnier each time. i remember watching it the first time and thinking how could anyone think this is funny...well, now i'm a believer.
and i've actually looked the whole episode with Noel Fielding's other character. i didn't even realize before but he plays old gregg as well

i also suggest other episodes of the mighty boosh. Fountain of Youth is a good one but i'm not allowed to embed it, hit up youtube

boredom

2008-03-27T14:43:00.000-07:00

possibly the best game ever.
mcdonalds
I think it teaches great morals about our great capitalist nation. seriously give it a try. i never end up playing more than about 5 minutes since mcdonalds fires my incompetent ass rather swiftly.

in other news...peeps...i'm a little late for easter since i've been obviously rather lazy but i think you'll enjoy it all the same.
who knew peeps could be so...expressive

sociology and photoshoots

2008-03-26T15:21:00.000-07:00

so apparently there is intelligent life in my sociology class. this is the one where a girl once said that we should just kill all of the criminals and that there is nothing wrong with the privatization of prisons...yeah...right. but i found people actually saying the EXACT same things that i've told them. initially all i could think of was...what the fuck these people are stealing my ideas then i though...meh okay at least they're not afraid of me anymore. a kid quoted my whole "We vs Me" societal issue thing and they're all talking about how the structure is the problem and i feel i'm gathering a small band of rebels...actually i feel its more hilarious than anything else...don't ask me why.
photo shoot with kamila today went pretty well although we might have exposed all the film on the viewfinder camera...that's one of those super old ones that you put on a little cape to see under. it looks kind of like an accordion. at least the digitals came out well. i took a bath afterwards and forgot how much eye makeup i had been wearing...needless to say i looked like a raccoon.

spoiled brats

2008-03-25T17:07:00.000-07:00

i'm on a cleaning rampage at the moment. my dorm is a cotastrophy. yesterday i cleared out the mold off our window and hopefully saturday i'll get the kitchen clean. today my task is the room. i'm not sure how successful it'll be since there's still a bunch of ivan stuff here but that should be changing soon...hopefully. basically my roommates/suitemates need to learn to get off of their ass and clean. we have our very own valley girl who probably just goes here since she couldn't get accepted to anything better. she has her brand new red jeep which she calls a "hunk o'junk" and NEVER does her dishes. my roommate, Lisa, stacked her dishes yesterday since they were monopalizing the entire kitchen and our little valley girl flipped and wrote an angry message on the chalk board. personally i find it a little funny since she really has nothing going for her. she doesn't particularly have good looks, she's not ugly by anymeans but she's not the typical blonde bimbo valley girls that get away with being bitchy and immature since they're so stereotipically gorgeous, but no, she's just a complaining, lazy girl who can't clean and makes us all sick with her undercooked food.
I almost forgot how good Los Bagels is and fear i may die in may when i move back to orange county.
I've found myself back in the world of sticky buns, blueberry muffins, slugs, and of course regular bagels with amazingness on top aka the best cream cheese i've ever had, veggies, fresh blackberry jam, etc...mmm now i'm getting hungry
yeah, you're jealous

you know you like it

2008-03-25T15:45:00.000-07:00

horton hears a who

2008-03-23T15:33:00.001-07:00

saw it and i have to say that if you watch this clip you'll have seen the best part of the film...

the funny thing is i believe i actually had a conversation about farting butterflies with someone, we decided that it would be a horrible idea since everyday when you took off your pants you'd find dead butterflies

my favorite quote...ever

2008-01-30T13:30:00.000-08:00

Craig Kilborn: "Name your favorite Charlie's Angel. Give you some time to think of that."
John Cleese: "Noam Chomsky."

los bagels

2008-01-29T10:42:00.000-08:00

my teeth hurt so bad that i feel like the lower part of my skull will separate.
it's strange to feel so lonely where i am in life but i've never been more so.

blackbird rum

2008-01-28T22:35:00.001-08:00

i actually sat down today and drew which has been a rare occurrence since i have begun my collegiate career which is strange since i'm a studio art major. i might as well be majoring in "starving artist" but whateves. i'm getting really into graphic design which i think i could be really could at, but that's just for now. i had a dream last night of all these clothes i should or did or will design. or something like that. that made me happy since i've had a lack of inspiration lately.
i will try and get the two pictures up when i pull my scanner out from under my bed.
I should really be writing my article for the zine right now. i'm the editor for goodness sakes. (i don't know how to write that expression and i just realized that

so soon

2008-01-28T13:03:00.001-08:00

i think i'll make cheesecake tonight

snow

2008-01-28T12:46:00.001-08:00

The snow finally came. the better half of yesterday as well as the early morning brought white the beautiful yet very cold white stuff to our home. ivan wanted to hike but since i was feeling sick and hiking in the middle of a pretty good snow fall and possibly throwing up all over it didn't seem like my perfect afternoon, i passed.
one of my favorite and least favorite things about redwood country is that you're never quite sure when it stops raining. the trees are so heavy with water that the continue the showers for up to hours longer than the skies decided. in this case however the trees are heavy with melting snow and the sun has come up and they seem to pour cold cold water for god knows how long. long story short...avoid the trees.
i was a little upset when i was walking to class today and almost fell on my butt like four times on those slick slopes but now its just wet and i want it back. there's snow around but still...i want more.
on of my professors was making fun of "californians" and how they don't know about snow. excuse me. does he realize how large this state is? its larger than many countries. did the geographical diversity ever strike him. from my home in san clemente i could see snow on the close-by mountains and there's always plenty of feet of snow just an hour away. i was really disappointed to see just a few inches. there was actually a lot but it just wouldn't stick until well into the 4th hour of the storm. i expected more...but still it was nice and exciting.

dans les grandes plainmes des peines à jouir

2008-01-25T13:05:00.000-08:00

parfois j'aimerais mourir tellement j'ai voulu croire.
it somehow seems to be a mistake. i am not happy. jealously, paranoia destroys everything with us little bear. it drives me crazy little bear. i do not feel better as i sit alone waiting for you to come home. i can no longer see the bright future we once saw together. i have lost that future and no longer know what to do.
i still have these passions little bear. i still cannot stand aside and watch little bear but i no longer know what i am to do.
i had been so sure. i was so committed to my cause, willing to become a martyr in a revolution i will not see, but i cannot leave my family. i cannot have my family leave me. i don't know what to do.
it breaks my heart but your paranoia drives me mad. will it be like this forever? each of the other feeling the other has all the power. it is not safe that way. how can we love each other but hate each other at once. i cannot see. i am blind.
j'espère ne plus jamais faire souffrir quelqu'un comme je t'ai fait souffrir.
-little bug

lessons

2008-01-20T02:27:00.000-08:00

two things that i simply do not understand.
1) my biopsy went incredibly well and i'm completely healthy and perfect. so why does my aunt have to go off and blab to everyone. obviously she has not had this happen to her. unfortunately it has happened to me twice. this experience...not the biopsy. when something very or even slightly tragic happens in your life, it is not custom to go tell everyone about it. or at least such is the case avec moi. when there is something like illness or in my previous case the death of a parent or other close relation, it is not the best thing to keep talking about it to the person experiencing the loss or what have you, especially when it is from people they did not tell and these people happen to be making baby noises or whatever to try and comfort said person.
honestly, i had a small surgery, i didn't digress to the age of 4, for heaven's sake.
I understand though that they are just trying to help, or whatever is going through their mind, but in reality it just creates more stress and frustration.
i was totally comfortable and fine until all of these people started calling. this is why i didn't tell people, so that they wouldn't be freaking out over nothing especially because this really is nothing. most women have this done. really, it is not a big deal.

2) sometimes i question some people's taste level. i went into a store called No Fear today with a friend (if that friend ever reads this, i apologize) . its a place that carries brands like SKIN, SOCAL, metal militia, etc. it's all bro/bro-ho clothes. first of all i was not comfortable in the least bit even being in that store. it's the trashiest i've ever felt and i don't even wear those clothes. there was a sales boy who was giving my friend his opinion and such on the windbreaker that she wanted. he was definitely hitting on her. i was definitely rude to him. very wannabe bro, very wannabe thug, just a wannabe and frankly he made me uncomfortable in more ways than one. when he rang her up he was shamelessly hitting on her and one of the "tricks" he used was talking to his coworker about his mom. basically he said he needed to get out on time so his mom wouldn't have to wait to pick him up. his coworker noted that he was "so considerate" blah blah blah and my friend smiled. all i could think was....wait...you don't drive? this guy was in his 20s and his mom was driving him? which also meant that he probably lived with his mother. all i could do was roll my eyes and juggle sarcastic remarks around in my head. when we left i finally said "well he's a winner" and my friend laughed and stuff as i threw out my remarks which were probably harsh but still... and then she was like "well...i dunno...i thought he was cute"...in that same conversation she said that if it came between a really nice guy and a really hot bro guy she would probably go with the bro, even though she said she knew she would wish for the nice one.
this made me feel horrible. since when did women decide to date men based purely on looks. truthfully that's not my top priority in attraction and i honestly did not think girls would rather go for the "hot" guy than a nice or intelligent guy.

which brings me to another point. the things the sexist things i can think of are intelligence, passion, and ambition. i don't care how superficially "attractive" a guy is, if he can't carry on a decent conversation then he might as well be jabba the hut and if he can that makes him attractive despite possible physical flaws.
of course i have physical characteristics i'm into, it would be inhuman not to, but by no means are they the most important thing i look for. does that make me too picky?
maybe that's why i haven't had this huge dating career. looking back, yeah there's always guys that are interested in me but lack of intellect and ignorance are the most unattractive things in the world. i've turned down a number of boys in my life and believe me it wasn't for a problem of aesthetics. i don't think i have high standards...well i guess i do, but i feel that i deserve that right.

banana love

2008-01-18T00:58:00.000-08:00

it's so strange how things work out the way they do. six months ago i would have never though that banana and i would be back to where we were. it really gives a new meaning to friendship. it's the most wonderful feeling when you haven't talked to someone in almost a year and the minute you get back together it's like you were never apart.
we've had so many wonderful times and i really love her so much.

so basically i'm just rambling about jordan and that she's my favorite and that we are each other's favorite.

when i move, i seem to move for other people which i don't really see as a bad thing. i love going to new places and having new experiences and if someone wants to go somewhere and they are willing to have me come as well, i'm down. i don't think that i could live very far from jordan, she is the biggest reason i want to stay here. i will miss her smile so much. she's the one who really understands and truly accepts me for who i am.

our "fight", our "falling out" was just as bazaar as our reunion. i guess we both knew that we each needed to grow and that we needed to do that growing by ourselves. that's the way i could best describe it.

so jordana banana i love you

melted ice

2008-01-15T20:47:00.000-08:00

all my ice melted and now i'm in a little puddle.
i feel great, but that's not necessarily a good thing

sick

2008-01-15T01:48:00.000-08:00

i don't understand why someone can be so paranoid over a significant other that can't even leave the house. o know that its worse than what he tells me. i know he thinks i'm scheming or planning something, or making it all up. honestly, i have gaping holes in my mouth, massive medication and surgery tomorrow. he must not believe me. how can you be so paranoid.
do i really seem so desperate? do i really seem like someone who is going to hook up with someone in this state? geez. it seems ridiculous and ludacris. what do you mean you cant help but be paranoid? where am i going to go? who am i possibly going to see?
theres no way you can be angry at me for this. do you think that this is what i want? am i the kind of person who wants to be continually stabbed and jabbed and dug into?
you must not know anything about me.

since no one reads

2008-01-14T10:22:00.001-08:00

and since i need to write it down SOMEWHERE...here is my top secret best ever vegan cheesecake recipe. yes the one that non-vegans have described as "heaven". That's just Ramone and Kamila, but hey, Kamila hates regular cheesecake but she can't get enough of this and i love her for it. On that note, for people who haven't had vegan cheesecake before, its a little more rich and creamy, also a little sweeter, and i have nothing against that. plus its exciting because i made it up by myself...hurray.

Start with
2 tubs 12oz? of tofutti better than cream cheese, try to get non-hydrogenated (or if you can get ahold of the follow your heart brand DO SO)
2 cups evaporated cane juice (or regular sugar if needs be)
egg replacer (enough for 2 eggs), preferably ener-g
1 tsp organic vanilla
about 1 tsp orange rind (to taste) can also be other fruit, the point is the citrus

graham cracker crust (preferably make your own)
assortment of fruit, chocolate, whatever

preheat oven to 350
soften the tofutti by squishing, stirring, mashing, whatever unless you have a mixer, obviously. i had to start getting creative when i moved away from my KitchenAid.
mix in sugar, egg replacer, vanilla, and orange rind, until smooth. pour in crust and set in oven, check every 10 minutes, 30 minutes tops. i haven't figured out the perfect cooking time but it really depends on the oven. if you just keep an eye on it it will be perfect. i haven't burnt one so good luck.
if you don't have the option of the oven, try freezing it, since there's nothing that you really need took cook in it, health wise, this should be fine. its a little hard and more like ice cream but its delicious all the same

it might get a little brown on the edges but that's fine. when its done stick it in the fridge for about an hour. this is the hardest part for me since all my roommates start to pick at it.
now just top it with your favorite fruits or whatever you want and enjoy.

note:some people like ivan, can't wait till it cools all the way and eat it when its still warm and soft which is fine and delicious but it gets a little messy and the fruit makes white spots on the top.

next i'm trying it with green and blacks maya gold and raspberries. i'll tell you how it goes.

better

2008-01-12T16:33:00.000-08:00

it's amazing what sleep can do.

pitiful

2008-01-12T14:58:00.000-08:00

so all of this sick time has given me all of this thinking time, which may or may not be a good thing. fading in and out of consciousness i've found myself worse off today than the others before. maybe it's the drugs, maybe it's the lack of food, whatever it is, it's not the best thing.
so my thinking continues and i can't help but feel trapped. maybe it's true what ivan says. maybe i won't be able to find someone who loves me as much as he does.
it makes me think back and try and find a time i didn't have to make the first move.
blaze asked me the other day to give him suggestions on asking a girl for her number, then it dawned on me, no one has ever asked for my number. well obviously people have but not in that way. i guess i should be thankful to not have to deal with that sort of thing but still...it would be nice.
another thing, guys always tell about how much they love it when girls make the first move. well...i'm tired of it. it's ridiculous. is it so hard to grow a pair?
maybe it's just me being sick but i can't help but be pessimistic.

too much ice cream

2008-01-11T21:04:00.001-08:00

and too much vicodin.
i have no more wisdom teeth which does not bring me pain as much as it does boredom. i can't stop craving solid foods and my teeth don't hurt when i eat them, however, i keep envisioning things getting caught in the holes in my mouth which is a little graphic and terribly disgusting. All I can think about is hemp burgers from Taco Loco, Mee Krab and Pad Thai from Mongkut Thai. The softest food I'm craving is spaghetti, but even the sauce i like has mushrooms and tomato chunks in it. So currently i am doomed to starve.
at least i have time to actually put something on my blog no matter how medicated i am.
so my plan right now is as follows:
go home (to arcata) on wednesday. work my little butt off in graphic design, figure drawing, and french (specifically). the other classes i'm not too worried about. mostly i'm just trying to keep myself busy. with 22 units that shouldn't be that big of an issue.
ANTM auditions are at the end of May/early June, which is not something i want to admit that i will do but...you know me.
which also means time to hit the gym and work on my walk. Hopefully being Kamila's continuous model wont hurt either.
The other thing i plan to do is a lot of sewing and working on my portfolio. My life goal continues to be to become a licensed couture dressmaker.
in other news i continue to sing feist's brandy alexander...for obvious reasons. and i bought the most amazing new flats

Winterness and back in Orange County

2007-12-27T00:19:00.000-08:00

So apparently i get all major sicknesses that you are not suppose to get more than once, twice. i had chicken pox twice when i was little and now i've had mono for the second time...bummer.

never

2007-12-15T22:06:00.000-08:00

i still can't forget that night.
i never thought i would end up with someone who would do that to me.
i can't look at him the same. ever, and i'm sorry but things will never be the same after that. if he could do it once, he could do it again.

not the greatest place to be

2007-12-05T22:34:00.000-08:00

i wish you would grow up.

both of you.

one of you continually preaches about being a free spirit or whatever the fuck it is that you want and preach against labels. tragically all you do is label people. you pretend like you are so mature and so grown up, that you've gone through so much and sure you've been through shit, but everyone has, you just never learned from it. that's what makes you mature, when you can deal with your shit and better yourself because of it. why don't you stop judging people for one second jocie and look at yourself. at least i don't make an ass of myself and continually embarrass those who try to love me. you're a walking contradiction.

you, on the other hand, love people like her. you defend them and praise them and i just don't understand your logic. you are "so old" and i don't understand what its like to be an adult. what? because you're 20? fuck you. i'm not the one with a 15 yeah old best friend which would be weird even if she weren't a girl. you say i don't understand what its like to have all of these responsibilities, to work and go to school. well you don't pay for your school either. you never have to worry about that. you don't pay rent. you don't even pay for food. you're far better of than i and you can't even see it. i'm not a child so stop continually treating me like one because it makes you seem like an idiot who refuses to listen. can you go through one conversation without interrupting the other person. i know you can't with me, or at least you never have been able to. i'm not like you're preteen girlfriends who let you get away with that.

this just isn't going to work

struggle

2007-11-30T20:58:00.000-08:00

I am two different people. I am not entirely one or the other, just part of both and I cannot do it anymore

Part of me is a revolutionary, out to liberate the world. She doesn’t care about being successful or having material objects. She is willing to give up everything for the movement, even her life if that is what it comes down to. She is a public speaker and people who hear her speeches say she is moving and powerful. She is strong but she is met with opposition on all sides, mostly within her movement and almost never from outside of it. Everyone in her movement thinks that she is just some white girl who does not really want to help the world, who doesn’t really understand the indigenousness struggle and the Zapatistas, or the fight of the working class; that she could never commit. They believe is just some white girl who cannot understand, but she understands. She fucking understands what it means and she cries at night about it and has forsaken her other half. She is in love with a boy who shares her values. They have not talked about their problems until recently and they are working on it. She loves the boy so much that she does not want to ever leave him.
The other part of me is apathetic about politics and feels that she has lost passion for such things. She has passion in art and feels that no one should take that away from her. She is the part of me that no one sees, no one except for one person; someone who does not even understand the significance of what he knows about her. She wants a stable life. She wants to enjoy life and not work every day for a moment of satisfaction that will never come. She has no inhibitions, she is outspoken, spontaneous, and has a thirst for life. She wants to travel the world. She is on fire. She sees herself as an art piece and likes to dress like she is such. She is also strong. And she is in love with a boy.

So now I am reaching a point in my life where my two persons must part and walk away. As I decide which road I take I am afraid to cross paths again, but I guess that’s a risk I’ll have to take. I feel that I really must embrace the self that I have denied so long. I do not want to be two people anymore and I am done with it.
The hardest part is probably walking away. It is a comfortable place to be the person everyone believes that you are but I guess that I can no longer live in that fantasy world. It is time for me to walk away. It is the end of one life and the beginning of another. I’m leaving but I don’t know where to, and maybe I’m okay with that. I know that I am in the wrong place at the wrong place.

The world’s got me dizzy and I’ll walk away.

down and low

2007-11-07T10:08:00.000-08:00

bummed.
that just about sums up my life right now.
I have no more money left on my J points, which is my meal card. Actually that's a lie, i have 15 cents on it, but that doesn't help me any. Its ridiculous. If you don't use a meal card food is REALLY REALLY expensive. A salad runs about $10. its ridiculous. with the card you can get 2 boca burgers, fries, and a grilled cheese sandwich for $5.05. With cash it's about $25. And its all just frozen food from sisco. ridiculous. So now i have to go to housing and dining to find out where my money went. I look at my transactions and my meal plan was $3,616. Do you know how much i got to use? Take a while guess. $824. That's how much. grrr. cause now i can't eat for the rest of the semester.
especially since i quit my job cause my boss kept yelling at me and eventually made me cry. I wouldn't have been able to get food stamps anyway though since my parents claimed me last year on their taxes. Lame. Basically my world is falling apart around me

school, art, and life

2007-11-05T16:19:00.000-08:00

So today I got news that I am in fact NOT going to go to school in San Francisco. I talked to my dad today and he has decided not to pay for school unless I go to BYU, which is just not a place I want to be. Good news is that I am still moving to San Francisco. I still plan on living with Tiffany which I think will be a wonderful experience. I also plan to work my tush off so that I can pay for school next year. At least this gives me a year off to audition for ANTM haha.
In other news I've been having problem with my diet and found out that I am really not getting as many calories as I need so I'm going back to the vegetarian diet. I'm just not rich enough to be vegan at the moment, which is a bummer but at least this time I didn't cry when I ate ice cream which is a pretty good thing as far as I'm concerned.
Kamila really helped me out today and made me feel much better. I'm really lucky to have her around.
I went to a speaker tonight, he was representing Queer Muslims and just talking to us. Some guys behind us were ridiculous. I could hear them saying that "there's no way he's a practicing Muslim" and i was shocked. How dare these boys, they were not close to men, say something like that. what right do they have to pass that judgement? Did they study the Koran? I doubt it.
They were just stupid college students. They kept asking him random questions that had nothing to do with what he was talking about. Right as I was about to say something to them, they left. I'm bummed I didn't get to say anything but at least they stopped harassing the poor guy.
In other news I got to make vegan cheesecake from scratch. Everyone liked it, especially the nonvegans haha. Apparently i'm a good pastry chef. It was delicious

an embarasment to humanity

2007-10-17T23:29:00.001-07:00

so i forgot to expand a little on san francisco in the sense of what went down in berkeley. I've already had my mind set on not going to berkeley anymore for several reasons but this past weekend i got a few more and also why i'll never go to ohio state.
so we all know about the tree sitters right? most people don't know though that the people aren't just there to protect the trees, they're citizens of berkeley who are tired of being run down by the university. there's a lot more controversy than people think. the surrounding city is dirt poor because the university takes all the money, good property, and everything else. right now they even charge for parking on pedestrian streets which they do not own. the same thing that's happening with the trees is the same as what happened at people's park, if anyone knows anything about that.
so, we were walking past and we stopped to watch, if you haven't been there, it's something worth seeing. there's the people in trees, all masked of course, they have houses and bridges and pulleys, there's a gate around them, and of course cops, to make sure that people don't attack the people in the trees.
A woman from ohio state (they were playing against berkley that day) was shouting at a police officer saying "what kind of university lets this happen" another person commented on the wasted tax dollars he police were spending by standing there.
I was dumbfounded because there are HUGE and elaborate frat houses just down the street with inebriated college kids our in the yard. There are numerous rapes and molestation as well as sexual harassment that happens at campus due to the allowance of this part of the "college experience". These guys are also the ones with top marks in their class that get petted on the head by professors because their parents donate money to the university, even if they do only show up less than half of the time. What kind of university allows that?
By the frat houses there was a HUGE multimillion dollar RV sitting in a drive way with "Go Army" posted all over it. It was a little more than extravagant. There were officers sitting around doing nothing, smoking and drinking. THAT my friends, is a waste of tax dollars.
I don't understand the mentality behind most people's thinking. I'm ashamed that people can live like this and not be upset or enraged.

The place we call home...

2007-10-15T15:18:00.000-07:00

So everything is just coming on so fast.
I have my classes which are fine except my stupid statistics class which will certainly be the death of me. Seriously, it brings me down, I can hardly stay the whole hour its so depressing.
I have work which is starting to look like a great obstacle, but at least I usually go to work after stats and it always makes me feel better. It may also mean that I don't get to go home for thanksgiving or for christmas and I don't know what i'm going to do when next semester comes around and i'll have at least six classes which will defiantly cut into my hours, which may mean i'll have to leave my job since i'm suppose to work from opening to closing. maybe i'll just take night classes and two morning classes, even though i promised myself i'd never take an 8 o'clock class again, seriously....it's probably the worst choice i've ever made, but at least i love the class.
I only have $83 left for food for the rest of the semester which means that I have to work more so that i can apply for food stamps and hopefully get an ebt card. did you know that you can be unemployed and not going to school and get food stamps? you can go to school part time and have no job and get food stamps? but if you go full time you have to be working at least 20 hours a week. This also may be a problem since i think my bosses are a little shifty and may not actually be sending the "taxes" they take out of my paycheck to the government, and i need my social security card which i do not have.

Other than that things have been swell,
I got a letter from my grandma joan today where she said rhonda sent me a letter with part of a letter i had sent to rhonda saying that i loved rhonda and all that jazz which i thought was funny because i write that stuff to make her feel better but now she's sending it to grams like "in yo' face!" and it's sad but grandma thought it was funny so its all good.

I did go to san francisco this weekend to have a wonderful adventure

it all started with five people in a five person car each with two backpacks on a five hour drive. It would have worked out except the girl who was driving us had a mother who insisted on carrying a years supply of food and water in the back of the car. Plus one of the girls had a grandfather who was dying as we drove and she would randomly start crying and ivan and i didn't understand why. it wasn't until about ten minutes before we dropped her off that we connected all the dots. Thankfully she made it in time. Sadly it made our trip two hours longer.
After that excitement we finally made it to Oakland/Berkley, where ever you would say sean and jocie's building falls in. One of the guys from genghis tron broke his foot so we couldn't go to the show on jocie's birthday, we went to a delicious vegan restaurant instead, but it was already 8 by the time we got there so that's all there was time for. Saturday Sean took us to Maggie Muds which sits atop a GIGANTIC hill, they were the demise of my calves. But the vegan ice cream was amazing. Best sunday ever, i just wish i had been able to eat it all, there was just so much.
Then we went to jocie's and elise's birthday party which was located in scenic paul and cory's studio. it wasn't half bad. ivan and i fell asleep on the couch at about 1 45 am and we all left finally at about 2 30.
next day we ate yummy vegan food then we had to go home : (

So now i sit here waiting for either my work to call me or for ivan to get off of work so i can go over to his house. I should probably be working on my zine that's due out november 1st. we have a meeting tomorrow i'll tell you how it goes.

okay i'm done making you bored