Wednesday, April 22, 2009

more than orange juice


i have so many mixed feelings right now but i think things are starting working out, finally

Monday, April 20, 2009

carnies, love, and sepia tone

I think I just developed my greatest roll of film...ever. contact sheet soon to come. everything is going so well.


Saturday, April 18, 2009

dying to say this to you

three years. i can't bear to give you anymore


Friday, March 20, 2009

Bookfair Weekend





It was a wonderful weekend. millenium....soo good.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

rewild



i just got ahold of mike xvx's new album, 'rewild'. it doesn't have as much catchiness as his first album BUT what it does have is passion, intimacy and raw emotion. it continues on themes of animal liberation, feminism, and general freedom in a way which reaches a wider audience than the general seven generations and gather fans, but keeps to it's roots.

I feel a lot more from this album.

Before it actually came out one of it's tracks titled "i'm not afraid to admit that i need help" found me in a hard spot one night. it was before i actually talked to him on a more regular basis but it was a time when i felt alone, not that i didn't think that anyone else didn't feel the way that i did, but that i had never heard it before.

the first couple chapters in my novel Naomi are heavily influenced by his music.

i recommend getting ahold of his music to anyone who's looking for a little more meaning in their lives


my favorite tracks are : "my favorite place" and "that night i dreamed of arson"

Saturday, March 7, 2009

for any graphic designers out there

I'm so good at not doing my homework


i think i should major in putting things off.


i think i already put this up BUT since rhonda was talking to me, i remembered to spend a little time at http://www.passiveaggressivenotes.com/



Monday, March 2, 2009

procrastinating

I have a hard time doing anything anymore, little motivation to get off my lazy ass. once i get up i'm fine and love to do everything, it's just getting to that point. there are so many things i need to do, my zine, sewing cycling caps, homework, books i want to read, being yelled at by the rhonda etc.

on the good side I shot another 2 rolls today and i hope they come out. i've been having such bad luck with cameras lately and it's discouraging.... incredibly so.

the anarchist book fair is swiftly coming upon us.

there have been book fairs popping up everywhere from Arcata to LA but nothing beats the original. on sunday Andrej Grubacic is speaking on Wooblies & Zapatistas. i'm excited. it will be a good weekend. also the anarchist cafe is on that friday from 7-10 p.m. at 225 Potrero Ave. (Between 15th and 16th Street) if anyone cares.

hopefully i will get to see sean.

in other news, i've officially applied to byu, but my transcripts are late...not sure how that's gonna turn out...we will see. maybe i'll just adventure for a quarter? sea shepherd anyone?

i'm still a little sore from that hike. let's go on another one?








i should really just stop listening to such mellow music when i want to do something productive i need to bust out Carmensita, it always gets me pumped




you should listen to the lyrics

Sunday, March 1, 2009

DayTrotter



Somewhere in a land far far away (Illinois) there is a magical recording studios that bands come to record at when they pass through. The sound they record is wonderful and often fresh for bands we've been listening to for a while.

For example, Bon Iver has a wonderful song called Lump Sum which he re-recorded at this studio...it's amazing.


It's also a sweet place to find new bands like Horse Feathers



bands also include Andrew Bird, Tilly and the Wall, The Mountain Goats, The National...you get the point

and the best part? all the tracks are free!

Glass Cake


So there's this girl and she's awesome. One of my best friends in santa barbara is friends with a girl named Michelle who records music in her bathroom and she's awesome. I started listening to her at a time when i could really relate to her music. it's raw and beautiful...oh and she's also friends with one of my favorite artists, Jon Carling so I love her even more.




she put her demo up on mediafire for everyone to download and love too.

http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?znmkw2mjmuz

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Monday, February 16, 2009

Like Lavender


sometimes i just want a real conversation with a real person


i wish i could tell you what i mean to say

Sunday, February 15, 2009

more artists



I'm in love with a man named Jon Carling, an artist currently living in Oakland. I'm jealous of his talent and he's currently my creative inspiration.

he's on etsy too!





Thursday, February 5, 2009

Michael Phelps


gets caught smoking weed and the first thought that seems to enter everyone's minds is... "imagine what fat rips he must be able to take with that lung capacity"


so true, so true

Friday, January 9, 2009

free art show

my friend Paul Barron (now based in San Francisco) will be showing some art at a folk and punk show this

Saturday the 10th of January.




Art show starts at 6pm.


At the Impound house located at:
346 East Lincoln street in Orange, CA


The first Saturday of Feb he'll be showing at the Santora Building in Down Town Santa Ana....

207 North Broadway
Santa Ana, CA 92701

Thursday, December 25, 2008

merry christmas

this christmas was just another day i guess. it was my first day off in a long time and is the only day i have off for the next week or so.
steve and i went to the migdat's. that's really all i have to say about that except that i had a really good time talking to my cousin. i have a lot of hope for him and it was nice not to feel so alone at all of these functions. he actually inspired me a little. i need to get a better hold of what i'm doing in life.
right now i feel like i'm aimlessly wandering, waiting for something



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Monday, November 10, 2008

it's official

i am now homeless.
i decided that i couldn't really afford rent at my house so i'm staying with friends right now, will perhaps camp around. it'll be an adventure to say the least.
i quit nordstrom recently. saturday is my last day. that job has just been creating too much unneeded stress in my life right now with too little pay. i have a job at a gluten-free market called Stella Lucy's down by del mar. it's really nice, i love it, but unfortunately i only work saturdays. it should be enough to pay my car payments for the moment, but sadly no rent.
i've been missing my friends up north and the new plan is to move up next semester.
i feel like i'm a little messed up right now. as most of you know i've finally been able to move on from my relationship with ivan. that's not to say that i'm over it or anything but it's what's best. i miss the friendship more than anything. dating someone for so long, i guess that that's bound to happen. he was, after all my best friend for over two years.
i just learned that sean and jocie (my old best friends) recently broke up as well. i think that that's for the best as well. it really solidifies things though for some reason.
i'm dating someone new and it's going okay. he's not really someone i ever saw myself dating but things seem to be working out as well as i could hope for, which is not well on my side but very good on his side. so at least one of us is happy.

....yeah... that's all for now.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

now i'm done!

it's been a long time

Saturday, June 7, 2008

101 Reasons to GO VEGAN

original site

its UK based but it gives you an idea of what's going on. just remember that the numbers would be much greater when applying it to the US

PEOPLE

Every year in the UK we feed our livestock enough food to feed 250,000,000 people while in the world 30,000,000 people die of starvation
20 vegetarians can live off the land required by one meat eater
Every 3 seconds a child dies of starvation somewhere in the world
If Americans reduced their meat consumption by 10% it would free 12,000,000 tons of grain - enough to feed 60,000,000 people (the population of Great Britain)
If all Americans became vegetarian, it would free enough grain to feed 600,000,000 people (the population of India)
Intensification in animal farming has displaced 1,000,000's of people from their traditional lands - eg. indigenous people in south & central america, native americans in north america & crofters in Great Britain - this is continuing today
People displaced from their lands into cities succumb to dietary deficiency, diseases, parasites & opportunistic diseases
In third world countries 1 in 10 babies die before their first birthday
The UK imports 46,000,000 worth of grain from third world countries to feed our livestock
Due to overgrazing 850,000,000 people live on land threatened by desertification & over 230,000,000 already live on land so severely desertified that they are unable to sustain their existence & face imminent starvation
1,000,000,000 people in the west gorging on meat & dairy leave 1,000,000,000 to waste away & 3,500,000,000 teeter on the brink

LAND

If they continue to clear American forests to raise cattle at the present rate, in 50 years there will be none left
1 acre yields 165 lbs of beef or 20,000 lbs of potatoes
8/10 of cultivated land in the UK is used to grow food for animals
It takes 16lbs of high protein soya to produce 1 lb of beef
Since 1945 in the UK we have lost 95% of flower meadows, 50% of ancient woodlands, 40% of heathlands, 50% of wet lands & 224,000 km of hedgerows all due to animal farming
Pressure on land due to meat farming leads to soil erosion 6billion tons/year in the USA
If everyone went vegetarian upto 90% of land used for animal farming could be taken out of production & used to replant woodlands, leisure activities etc.
25% of Central america's forests have been destroyed for cattle grazing since 1960
Between 1966-1983 38% of the Amazon rain forest was destroyed for cattle grazing
90% of cattle ranches established on cleared forest land go bankrupt in less than 8 years as the land becomes barren due to nutrient loss & overgrazing
Overgrazing by cattle is destroying the land & increasing desertification, nearly 430 million acres in the USA alone has suffered a 25-50% reduction in yield since first grazed
An inch of topsoil takes 200-1000 years to develop - yet in the USA they have lost around 1/3 of their prime topsoil in 200 years (around 7 inches) due to animal farming
Land will be lost due to rises in sea level due to global warming due to animal farming

AIR

The destruction of the rainforest by cattle farmers is destroying the lungs of the planet & reducing the worlds capacity to replenish our oxygen supply
The 1,300,000,000 cattle in the world emit 60,000,000 tons of methane per year (methane is a greenhouse gas & leads to global warming)
Burning of forests, grasslands & agricultural waste associated with animal farming releases 50-100,000,000 tons of methane per year
Combining these figures, 25% of methane emissions are due to animal farming (not including the billions of sheep, pigs & poultry so the real figure is much higher)
Fertilizer used to grow crops to feed to animals releases nitrous oxide - thought to account for 6% of the greenhouse effect
Fertilizer, weedkiller & pesticides sprayed on crops enter the atmosphere creating a noxious carcinogenic cocktail
CFCs are released into the air from refrigeration units used to store decomposing flesh (meat), milk & butter - CFCs are destroy the ozone layer
Ammonia from animal urine also pollutes the atmosphere
CO2 is released by burning oil & petrol in lorries, ships, abattoirs, dairies, factories etc. associated with meat & dairy production
Emissions from large chemical plants which produce fertilizer, weedkiller & other agricultural chemicals are also poisoning our air

WATER

25 gallons of water to produce 1lb of wheat & 2500 gallons to produce 1lb of meat
UK farm animals produce 200,000,000 tons of slurry (liquid excrement) every year, the majority of which ends up in our rivers
Bloody waste water from abattoirs ends up in our rivers
In the USA every second humans produce 12,000 lbs of effluent while farmed animals produce 250,000 lbs
Nitrates & pesticides used on crops grown to feed livestock end up in our rivers
Meat & dairy farming uses 70 litres of water per day per animal in the UK or 159,250,000,000 litres per year in total
The water used to produce 10 lbs of steak is equivalent to the average consumption of water for an entire household for an entire year
Depletion of groundwater reserves to grow crops for animals & to supply abattoirs will lead to greater water shortages
Aquafers (stores of underground water) in the San Joaquin valley in the USA are being drained at the rate of 500,000,000,000 gallons/year to produce meat
18% of all agricultural land in the world is irrigated & as global warming increases (partly due to animal farming) it will cost $200,000,000 to keep these systems going
The water used to produce a 1000 lb beef steer is enough to float a Destroyer battleship
The liquid waste from the various parts of the meat & dairy industry flow into the rivers & from there into the seas polluting them & encouraging huge algal blooms to grow

EFFICIENCY

To produce 1calorie of energy from meat takes 60 calories of petrol, whereas growing grains & legumes to directly feed people produces 20 calories for each calorie of fuel used ( thats 1200 times more efficient)
Meat & dairy farming uses billions of gallons of oil to run tractors, fuel ships & lorries (to move animal feed & animals), pump billions of gallons of water to irrigate fields & run slaughterhouses, power refrigeration units to prevent the corpses from decomposing & to power sewage plants to clean up some of the pollution produced
Cattle convert only 6% of their energy intake (mainly grains & soya) into flesh, the remaining 94% is wasted as heat, movement (which is why they keep many animals in very close confinement), hair, bones, faeces etc
1lb of beef takes 1 gallon of petrol to produce
A family of four eating beef for a year uses enough petrol to run a car for 6 months (obviously depending on how far you drive!)
If the full ecological cost of meat was passed onto the consumer - the price would be quadrupled (at least)
The EC spends 100,000,000's to subsidise animal production resulting in lakes of unwanted milk & mountains of unwanted meat & butter. This money could be better spent encouraging organic fruit, vegetable & grain production
In the USA in 1979 145,000,000 tons of crops were fed to cattle resulting in only 21million tons of animal bodies - the cost of the wasted crops was $20,000,000,000
Between 1950 & 1985 grain production in Europe & the USA increased massively but 2/3 was fed to animals
70% of all grain is fed to animals
Eating vast quantities of animal flesh, eggs, milk & butter is a luxury that most of the planet can not afford

ANIMALS

Fishing with drift (and other modern) nets weakens & destroys ecosystems by indiscriminately killing billions of sea creatures & disrupting the sea bed
Fishermen's nets kill 10 times as many other animals as the fish they are hoping to catch
Fish caught in nets die an agonising slow death of suffocation
Each year 15,000,000,000 land animals are slaughtered for food & an unknown but much larger number of sea creatures (including 1000's of dolphins caught accidentally)
Chickens are crammed into battery cages with upto 3 other birds, they are unable to even spread their wings & many can not even stand up
Unwanted male chicks (because they can't lay eggs) are gassed or pulped while their sisters go to the battery sheds
Chicks are debeaked without anaesthetic to prevent them injuring each other in the unnaturally confined conditions they are kept in - this is equivalent to having your fingernails pulled out without anaesthetic
Modern farming methods using growth hormones & artificial lighting mean that many chickens out grow their bones, resulting in fractured & broken legs
Sows are kept tethered in stalls 1.3 x 1 metre on concrete or slatted floors - they can not even turn around
Poultry raised for meat are kept in windowless broiler sheds, with around 20-30,000 in each shed, they live in an area of 10-20 cm square - fighting due to overcrowding is common & like battery hens they commonly suffer from supperating bed sores
Broilersheds are artificially lit 23 hours a day to produce rapid growth
Animals travel between farms & to slaughter in overcrowded transporters with no food or water - resulting in stress, injuries & deaths - legal requirements are widely ignored
95% of poultry suffer injuries before being killed & 30% suffer broken bones
Problems with stunning practices mean that many animals have their throats slit while still conscious (around 6% of cattle or 200,000 per year) & are then dipped in tanks of scalding water (to loosen feathers, bristles etc.) again while fully conscious
4000 animals die spurting their blood out every minute in a British slaughterhouse

Calf leather comes from animals killed at just 2 weeks old
Cows were fed on the ground up remains of other cows & sheep - the result is thought to be BSE (mad cow disease) in the USA cattle are fed partly on recycled plastic pellets
Cows only give milk for 10 months after they have a calf - so they are routinely artificially inseminated (ie. mechanically raped) to keep them pregnant & milking - their calves are taken away (usually at 12 hours old) for meat or export to veal crates
Cows would naturally live upto 20 years but are slaughtered after 5-7 years when their milk production begins to fall
In the UK animals are killed by first being stunned with electricity or a captive bolt gun (ie. a bolt is fired into their heads) before having their throats slit & being plunged into boiling water - all this happens on a production line with the animals being hung upside down from a moving conveyor belt - this is factory farming
"Animals are those unfortunate slaves & victims of the most brutal part of mankind" - John Stewart Mill (philosopher)
Veal calves are confined in stalls in the dark, unable to move & are fed on pigs blood , chocolate & dried milk (we are drinking the rich fresh milk of their mothers)
Cows naturally produce 5 litres of milk per day for their calves - under the intensified systems of modern farming they produce 25-40 litres per day - resulting in swollen & inflamed udders - at this rate they are soon worn out
Large areas of land are under monoculture to grow crops to feed to animals - these areas are wildlife deserts supporting fewer & fewer species.








HEALTH

Vegetarians have a 20% lower rate of mortality from all causes (ie. they live longer & don't get sick as often)
Meat is full of traces of antibiotics, hormones, toxins produced by stress & pesticide residues that become concentrated from all the crops they have eaten
Fish contain heavy metals & other pollutants -many of which originated on farms
The world health organisation recommends a diet low in saturated fat, sugar, salt & with plenty of fibre - exactly what you get on a vegan/vegetarian diet
Farmed animals contain upto 50% saturated fat in their bodies
Vegetarians have 24% reduced risk of getting heart disease & Vegans a 57% reduction (heart disease is the biggest killer in the UK accounting for 50% of deaths)
Obesity is rare in vegetarians, obesity is related to many diseases
Vegans & vegetarians have lower blood pressure & cholesterol levels - high levels are associated with heart disease, strokes & kidney failure
Vegetarians have a 50% reduced risk of dying of diabetes
Vegetarians have a 40% reduced level of cancer than the general population thought to be because they have a higher intake of vitamins A,C & E
Vegetarians have a reduced risk of developing gall & kidney stones
80% of food poisoning is due to infected meat (faeces, bacteria etc.) after all meat is decomposing flesh - most of the rest is due to salmonella in eggs
Osteoporosis due to calcium loss from bones is mainly due to the sulphur content in meat & casein protein in milk that cause calcium to be lost in the urine - the countries with the highest meat & dairy consumption are those with the highest levels of brittle bones
50% of people do not have the enzyme to digest milk properly & milk allergy is related to asthma & eczema
Meat eaters have double the rate of Alzheimers disease as Vegans & Vegetarians - some people also think that Parkinsons disease is also linked to meat eating
Egg yolk is a dense concentration of saturated fat & the white is high in albumin protein associated with leaching calcium into your urine. Butter is 80% saturated fat, cream is 40% saturated fat & cheese is 25-40% saturated fat
Meat eaters are two and a half times more likely to get bowel cancer than Vegetarians
The cling film used to wrap meat in supermarkets & butchers contains chemicals linked to falling sperm counts in men
Chinese people (living mainly on a vegetarian diet) consume 20% more calories than Americans but Americans are 20% fatter
Of 2,100,000 deaths in the USA in 1987, 1,500,000 were related to diet (ie. meat & dairy)

AND I COULD GO ON !

If you've read this far, I hope that you are beginning to see that the Meat & Dairy industry is a major contributor to misery on this planet. It is destroying the health of people in rich countries, starving those in poor countries, it is torturing & killing billions of animals every year and in the meantime it is one of the major factors in the destruction of the environment - so what does the meat & dairy industry have to say in it's defence?
Well their only real point is usually "Meat is tasty" - fair enough a lot of people enjoy the taste of meat - but there are plenty of delicious alternatives (just consider the huge range of vegetarian dishes in Indian cooking - one of the oldest & most sophisticated cuisines in the world) and if you really crave meat & dairy, nowadays there are plenty of healthy non animal alternatives - just look in the supermarket & health food shop. So I hope you will agree it's pretty pathetic to consider all the evidence & then say "well I know you're right about the environment & health & the animals - but I just love my meat"

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Oracular Spectacular

MGMT's new video "Time To Pretend" is definitely on my top ten list at the moment. It's Lord of the Flies meets Yellow Submarine avec psychedelic colours and green screen effcts...and the songs not half bad either